Glutton for Punishment?

Here I go again…

I have been here before, yet this time is different. The tension is unreal. I have set these parameters, these boundaries, in my life; yet, I am my own worse enemy. I set myself up for disappointment by having these undeniable expectations, but you will never get me to admit that they exist. I claim to avoid any lofty expectations without facts to support them. In my experience, to expect is to open the door for disappointment. I am a self-defined eternal optimist, but I have lived and loved enough to know that it is not fair to my heart for me to allow myself to become enraptured in another’s aura, to the point that I lose sight of reality. Still, I sit in this sickly limbo, all by my lonesome. I’m over this bs…

Nita

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