Archive | November 2014

No Spending, this Black Friday

In my household, there has been a long-standing tradition of sleeping at an early hour on Thanksgiving, in order to rise before dawn, the next day.  I am not fond of mall shopping, nor am I enthralled with the hustle and bustle of holiday shopping.  Yet, there is something to be said about snagging that “true bargain”, the day after Thanksgiving.

For years, I would spend the weeks leading up to this monumental shopping day, perusing the massive sales ads, which typically boast from 40-70 pages of “deals”.  I would create a spreadsheet with a wish list of products that I would like to purchase for each of my family members.  I’d note the price and location of each potential gift.  Then, I would research the most desirable time to visit each store, even mapping out the order that I would visit each place.

Now that Black Friday has become so competitive among retailers, many stores has opted to start opening their doors on Thanksgiving Day, as well.  After a failed attempt to check out the sales, one Thanksgiving evening, I made the executive decision that my household would not participate in shopping on a day when I feel my family should be the focus of my attention.  I would, however, take full advantage of the sales, starting with the wee hours of the next morning.

Fast forward to today.  In recent weeks, I developed my spreadsheet, and even though I was a bit disappointed by the sales that have been published this year, I was prepared to be a part of the mass hysteria that has become such a tradition for me.  Due to circumstances completely out of my control, but still so prevalent and personal in my life, I have made the decision to opt-out of shopping, this holiday weekend.

My heart aches due to the injustice that has recently been witnessed worldwide, as it goes on in my backyard.  I was born and raised in St. Louis, MO.  I spent eight years away from my hometown, but I returned, last year.  While I definitely do not condone, nor do I support any type of aggressive behavior, there is no time like the present, for me to take a stand.  I pay my taxes, I vote, I speak about what I believe.  I know that I have the right, as a consumer, not to support anything that I have lost respect for.  I can’t allow myself to enjoy partaking in a day (or weekend) that is truly about greed, gluttony, frivolous spending, and filling the pockets of those who don’t assist in or even support the development of our nation, our world, or humanity. It saddens me to think of the state that we are in, as a species, in 2014.  I will most certainly celebrate Thanksgiving day with my family, enjoying the company of my loved ones, but no shopping will take place, this weekend, at least not by my household.

Lord, please have mercy on us and continually order our steps, guiding us toward a world where we can not simply co-exist, but love and respect each other as you intended.  Amen.

Nita

Peace, be still

‘And he arose, and rebuked the wind, and said unto the sea, Peace, be still.  And the wind ceased, and there was a great calm.’ Mark 4:39 (King James Version)

My heart is very heavy today, with all that is going on in my hometown.  This scripture was just placed in my spirit, and I would like to speak it to the world.

Be blessed this holiday season, and always.

Nita

Glutton for Punishment?

Here I go again…

I have been here before, yet this time is different. The tension is unreal. I have set these parameters, these boundaries, in my life; yet, I am my own worse enemy. I set myself up for disappointment by having these undeniable expectations, but you will never get me to admit that they exist. I claim to avoid any lofty expectations without facts to support them. In my experience, to expect is to open the door for disappointment. I am a self-defined eternal optimist, but I have lived and loved enough to know that it is not fair to my heart for me to allow myself to become enraptured in another’s aura, to the point that I lose sight of reality. Still, I sit in this sickly limbo, all by my lonesome. I’m over this bs…

Nita

Love

Quote from Rob Hill, Sr. (IG) – ‘Love is a commitment to protecting another person’s heart with the same passion that you use to guard your own.’

Have I loved? Quite certainly, at least I have attempted to do so. It is almost impossible for me to continually care for and love another when they aren’t emotionally equipped to receive or reciprocate it. Love is an action word. I believe love thrives in a healthy environment, where it can be nurtured and allowed to blossom, like a beautiful flower.

I am an eternal optimist who will always have hope in receiving the love that I feel has been promised to me. I will not stop believing in love.

Nita

Living life (personal diary entry)

02 NOVEMBER 2014, 08:21 PM

I am ready to live my life. I am ready to begin this chapter of my life. At 35.5, I would love to meet and marry the love of my life. I am ready to move forward in life and in love. My heart is ready to give and receive love, for life. It is time.

Nita